“You’re actually one of the most important things in my life right now. I’m shaking right now because the thought of losing you scares me. I want to be a better person for you. I want to be with you more than anything but I always fuck up and I don’t want to fuck up if we’re going out. I’m not used to somebody meaning this much to me. I don’t know what to do about you because I’ve always been so guarded and shielded from letting anybody in cause as you know I’m cynical and think everybody ends up leaving. And recently I’ve let you in further than anybody has been in years so it just scares me.”
“I don’t know what to do anymore than you. I’m twice as lost as you because all you ever told me was that this will always mean more to you than to me yet here we are. Talking doesn’t do anything, it just makes things worse because then we just try to hurt eachother and I won’t hurt you. I’m sorry that I can’t make last past 7 months but I wanna be happy at least until then. I also don’t want to cry anymore but the words we are done keep repeating themselves in my head. I can’t stop crying.”
“It just felt so good to be with you and just talk. And it was the hardest thing for me to leave, that’s why I kept coming back to you. I know that no matter what comes our way we’ll be able to handle it – together. I just want you to know that I love you more than I let on but I love you deeply nonetheless. I’m going to do whatever I can to keep you.”
“I’m still here, still wanting to work things out. I’ll always be here, even if we aren’t talking about it. You don’t need reassurance about that.”
“You’re amazing, don’t you ever doubt that. And you’ve made me more happy then I’ve ever been, you just have to leave the past in the past or else we’ll never have a good present or an even better future.”
“Through thick and thin, I’ll always love you, my muffin.”
You played your cards and I’ll admit; you played them well.
But your wit is no match to my dignity.
I played my ace of hearts but it’s time to call your foul,
“BULLSHIT”
xoxOMG
- SB, my life in an abbrev.
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