Constant Reminder

FML. Not the site, literally my fucking life. How can something that is so bad for you seem so right? And that is where my story begins. Abuse, verbal or emotional does it really matter? An abuse shouldn’t take away a use. The fact that one abuses something doesn’t mean it wasn’t a good thing to begin with. If the relationship was never good to begin with, is it allowed to not follow the exceptions of this rule? Love, the word which has multiple meanings and differs among people. I guess love was shown by force, you cared that much that you had to use all your testosterone to prove it. Why do men find the need to portray their manliness, why do they always have to be the stronger ones? Will they ever get out of the mentality of the cave man? When one is blinded by “love” the right thing constantly becomes hidden in the shadows. I thought what we had was normal, that eventually you would change. Now, I have come to the realization that maybe people cannot change. Their traits are forever embedded in their DNA. Money can temporarily buy happiness, but it can’t hold someone’s love.

The forbidden fruit tastes the sweetest. Then came along the captain of my dreams, but I should have known you were too good to be true. I should have known that perfection should not be expected in cave men. Cave men will continue looking for their lives, following no specific path just flowing with the flow, doing what will benefit their lives. You literally came and knocked me down. You pulled me out of a bad situation and somewhat made it worse. In my previous state I at least had trust, and security. Was it the lack of this that kept me hanging on? The player will always run his game, you ran your game on court and I should have expected the “baller” mentality to continue on, even when dealing with emotions. If my name was Spalding would you have paid more attention, the interest would have been permanently there. Is the game that you crave, do you crave winning. I have come to the conclusion that you must always be the winner; you must always have the “OFSAA” medal? Home wreckers don’t exist right? Home wreckers should be called time savers. Why do people have a theory but yet don’t live by that theory. You did waste my time; I left my body builder security guard for a 80 year old one?

Now I cry over chocolate soy milk and green polka dot boxers. Why does someone so insignificant seem so significant? No matter how many times I see you I always walk away enriched. You were more than just the flavour of the month, I am now aware that I was only your double scoop vanilla ice-cream with sprinkles. And you’re choosing rocky road, when the known favourite is right in front of you. But ice-cream will never stay solid, it will always turn into a liquid all that is needed is an influential bystander. You were there to make my pieces fall apart but where were you when I needed to build them back up? The player will always play, so go ahead and play with baby rattles, and fisher price toys. Realizations only come when it is too late, have fun in Manila.
Again, FML.

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-AC, what the BUTT?!